Glory

Oh wow, I haven't posted in almost two weeks. Well, that's not true, I actually posted something on Tuesday, but took it off two minutes later. I'll revise it and re-post it at a later date - time-sensitive material of a sort.

All I can say is the past two weeks have been INSANE. If you think running a school and dealing with teenagers, Kindergartners, staff, and an occasional daycare issue is challenging - you're right. Now throw on top of it a budding writing career and you've got the recipe for a nervous breakdown. But, I didn't have one, not even close, there have been a few OMG moments, but for the most part, things haven't been bad, just challenging. I like a challenge. I'd rather be running around like a headless chicken and busy with the work of the Lord than sitting around, idle and bored, with time to get into trouble. It is a pleasure to use the mind God blessed me with!

Some things clicked for me this week. I find myself earnestly desiring to wade through the muck and mire people allow to build up around them. I desire to do this because maybe I can teach them something, maybe I can make a difference. There are people in my life that I do not enjoy dealing with, but finally this week, an answer to prayer no doubt, I've just decided that my preferences really don't matter. I've just got to keep a smile on my face and put up with them and show love, kindness, patience, and all those other good things - not because I have to, but because I want to. I want to see a change happen in that person. I want that person to be successful. I want that person's future to be different. I want them to grow up and pay it forward.

What do I get out of this? God will show me His glory, His abilities, His power. He can do anything, heal anyone, deliver anyone, and if you've never experienced God's glory, never had those chills race up your back when His presence sweeps into a room, you're missing out.

There are many things in this life that I enjoy, that make me laugh, that I get excited over, but none of them compare to the feeling I get when I know God just took care of business. When He does something to remind us all down here that He is the B.O.S.S. He healed my grandmother of "terminal" ovarian cancer 18 years ago; He healed my aunt of breast cancer two years ago; He has provided for me in every way for two years following a substantial pay cut because I've followed His leading on my life; when my vehicle spun out of control and there was nothing for me to do but cry out "Jesus", He heard me, and my car came to a safe stop; He kept a dear friend and now family member safe during two tours of duty in Iraq; When I'm out of answers and options, He listens, He watches over me and gives me the measure of peace I need to rest, and the next morning, it's always better. These are just a few examples that came to mind just now, but He does it every day, I pray every day, so ultimately, only He knows what He's kept me from, only He knows what He's done for me and my loved ones, and only He knows what my continued faith will make possible for the future.

I can do nothing without Him, but I can do anything with Him.